BritGalInTheCity

where am I?

S says she thinks I've changed. That I sound unsettled. Well der - I spend some of my time in NY and some over here living out of a suitcase and a few drawers my parents can spare, commuting over an hour to work while 2 young girls are getting the benefit of my London flat with new kitchen and great decor and not even covering my mortgage! Of course I'm unsettled!

Had a bit of a rough weekend actually. Coming back to blightly is always hard what with the mountains of friends, family and work people I have to see. Its worse this time around when work have pimped me out pretty much every day to one client or another and all my friends are even more dispersed cos they're building nests all over the south-east. Hen nights, marriages and pregnancies. Scans, baby names and duties - its all getting to me. I feel like I'm really old and going no-where when I come back. Like everything has moved on and I haven't - still in limbo, still go no clue where I'm headed or what my 5-year plan is (apparently I'm meant to have one of those....). J accused me of being boring (given up alcohol for lent) and that probably had something to do with it but in reality I'm just not myself at the moment...maybe I just need time to settle back in...

posted by NewbieMum @ 11:38 PM